Office day today, so back to normal, in most senses I suppose, after the imagined drama of nothing happening yesterday. My head is certainly doing its normal thing: I've had a small disappointment, therefore the whole trans idea is nonsense, I'm kidding myself, I'm just a man and always will be, blah blah blah. Every single time I even think of doing anything and then pull back from taking the leap, do I go back around this never ending cycle of doubt and negative thinking. I even know I'm doing it and that it isn't real, but still spend the whole day telling myself bad things. So now I am frustrated at myself for doing this yet again. Even someone commented on my Twitter from yesterday's blog that it doesn't get better by leaving it longer and I replied that I knew that the outcome would be the same today, tomorrow, next week, next year, ten years hence. Which rationally I know is the case, so there is no point in putting it off because i...
I’m just a boy who dreams of being a girl. These are my musings about that journey as I try to work out exactly what that means.