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25th February - wearing a bra top all day

Even though I have bought a number of bras over the years and more recently a set of soft bra crop tops, I rarely have the opportunity to wear them for any length of time as the shape of them shows under clothes and not being out, I don’t have the option of risking that. 

The crop tops are seamless and unpadded though so they can be hidden under a thicker male top and easily if I wear a jumper over, something which is necessary today anyway as it is pretty cold. 

So today I have worn one all day to feel what it is like to have a stretchy band around my chest all the time whilst I am going about my day to day. This included mundane stuff like going to the supermarket, walking the dog, cooking, gaming and watching tv. 

The experience was not uncomfortable at all. I was never not aware that I was wearing it though. Maybe that fades over time when one gets used to it. I’m not consciously aware of my socks for example so maybe after a long time of wearing a bra every day, women cease to notice them too. 

Two thoughts that did keep coming to me through the day did bring me happiness:

Firstly, I bought these bra tops ready for when I start hormones so that I have soft comfortable protection for breast development. By wearing this today, I am practising for that part of my transition. This is part of my preparation. 

The second thought is longer term and more momentous maybe. Once I transition, I will be wearing some kind of bra all day every day for the rest of my life. Put that way it sounds a bit daunting but I mean it as a positive. It is something that women do and experience and that will become my experience as I become a woman physically. 

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