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15 Mar 25 - normalised the things that help me to feel feminine

I have really now normalised wearing female underwear every day, only ever using the loo seated and now also wearing a crop top or first bra every day. I have been wearing the crop tops every weekend day for a long time, but I have now made it part of my routine to change into one at the end of the working day when I get home and change. So each week that is now two full days and three to four hours every night, so it has become normalised for me, like the underwear and I am becoming less aware of the sensation of the band around my chest. I’m also changing into a nightdress for bed every night which has again become normal for me. 

It is nice that I am able to do all these small things for myself to help me to feel feminine but none of them are real progress. For me to really become feminine, I am going to have to get on hormones and make actual changes to my body. That means organising the blood tests and then booking the appointment, which itself is difficult due to the refusal of my GP to help. Before any of that though, I need to help my wife to understand and get on board with me doing any of this. 

This is where my courage usually fails me and why nothing has happened. This weekend I have the excuse of our son coming to visit so I can’t possibly bring up the subject. But that is just making excuses. 

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