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25 Dec 24 - a Christmas present for Nicola

Last year I gift wrapped a new bra as a gift to myself. When it came to the day, I didn’t really feel it and never unwrapped it so it has been sat at the back of my wardrobe ever since. 

This year I did unwrap it. First gift I opened actually, but in private and alone.  

Even then, I just put it in a drawer. 

I’m feeling a bit down about my prospects for transitioning after yesterday so now I’m going to adjust the straps and try it on. 

It’s a multi-way / strapless bra from M&S. Size is 38A which is the smallest cup they do for that band size. Considering it’s an A cup, they look pretty big. My 36AA bras are more or less flat. I can’t imagine I will ever be able to fill these. 

I had to fully lengthen the shoulder straps which is a reminder that I have a big male body. 

The band is quite tight, even on the first row of hooks, although I suppose that is necessary to be able to wear it strapless. 

Overall though, it’s comfortable and although plain, I think it is quite pretty and feminine. I’m also wearing knickers today and I like the look of the white bra with the pink underwear. 

Those cups are empty though. ☹️

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