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2 Nov 24 - some time alone dressed female

I had privacy and have been able to spend the night wearing my nightdress. It is really feminine and I do feel comfortable and pretty wearing it. Apart from my hairy arms which really spoil the look. But I love how short it is and how my legs look. I love how it clings to my body shape. Obviously be better if I had a female body shape but it is still nice. 

As it is the weekend, I am wearing female underwear and I’m wearing my favourite bright pink bikini knickers with white polka dots and a little white bow.

Having been out for the day, I’m now back in the hotel room by myself. 

I have shaved my legs, which took a while, but I’ve now put on tights and they feel much nicer with smooth legs, plus you don’t see hair through them which is unattractive. Also now wearing a bra and white top which has a low square neck and shows a bit of skin which I think reads quite feminine. Also my pencil skirt which is a little tight but I love the look.

After dinner now and I have undressed and put my nightdress on which is a much better look now I’ve shaved my legs. 

I shared some selfies earlier with a couple of online friends. Everyone was complimenting my appearance which was nice. One said she loved my hair. I’d captioned my pictures that I was trying to look female and someone commented that I was succeeding. 

I think I actually do look quite feminine when I dress female. Almost to the point that I feel it would be a pity not to transition as that is so clearly who I am and who I’m meant to be. Also, how it makes me feel to see myself looking feminine, I really love that. Just sitting here now writing with my smooth legs and this short nightdress I do just feel attractive and comfortable in a way I never do as a male.  I’m a woman through and through, there’s no denying it. 

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