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28 Jan 2024 - dreaming about trans things

It is so nice to wake up wearing a bra and think I’m a girl.  Not that women sleep in their bras, but I don’t have the opportunity during the day.  

I was having a dream when the dog woke me up, that two of my team were having ballroom dancing lessons (unlikely!) and that their teacher was a trans woman but nobody said anything about that. I wanted to ask her things but didn’t get the chance. And then the dog needed to go out.  

Now having breakfast wearing my dressing gown over the underwear.  It’s a bit of a risk as my wife would definitely feel the bra if she hugged me and the shape might be visible on my back.  I don’t want to take it off yet though, I want to feel female a little longer. 

It’s curious that I don’t seem to have much libido lately. I can get interested if I try, but I’m not waking up wanting to. I know it is not possible that my body has started making oestrogen but maybe it has reduced the amount of testosterone it’s producing.  Could be an age thing or maybe stress.  Can’t imagine it’s because I want to.be a girl so my body is going along with that.  If it has dropped off though, that might be a good thing as reduces the need for testosterone blockers if (or when) I do hormone therapy. 

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