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Hi there! I’m “New Maiden” and this is my journey.

And a “new maiden” is what exactly?
That’s a good question, thanks for asking.
A maiden is a girl. In history or literature usually a young unmarried woman or girl.
So...I’m a girl.
And new, means well, new. Has come into being but was not before.
Sorry, confused?
Oh well, put simply: am a boy, wish I’m a girl, so created “me”!
I like the idea of being a maiden (I’m thinking medieval princess) and I’m all new. Hence, “new maiden”.
And I had to call the blog something, right?

And my journey?
Journeys have a beginning and a destination, so where are they?
Well the beginning I can tell you about.
The destination, I don’t know yet!
I’ve set out without a clear idea of where I’m going.
Come with me and we can find out together where I go.

And “maiden journey” (or maiden voyage or flight) is a phrase for the first trip/sailing/flight of a new vehicle/ship/aircraft so that’s kind of appropriate too.

If you’re wondering if this is a blog about transgender or transexual, or about cross-dressing or transvestism or just feeling confused, well it might be any of those things. Or it might not. That’s kind of the point because I’m on a journey, those things may be possible routes the journey could take but right now, I honestly couldn’t say either way. So maybe it is about feeling confused!
It’s also another reason I’m describing myself as a “maiden” rather than heading this as a “tran...whatever” journey because I don’t know that yet.

Blogging is part of the journey too. It doesn’t really matter if no one ever reads this. I’ll get some kind of therapy from trying to write things down in a logical order and trying to make sense of it. Obviously I could do that privately but secretly thinking about my secret is not really making progress. Also, if someone with similar feelings reads this and feels a bit less “different” and is able to short cut some steps by learning from things I’ve done the hard way, then that would be a good thing too.

That’s enough of an introduction for now. My plan is to write along two main themes: my back story; and how my journey progresses. The back story I know, but the journey bit, I’ll be finding out pretty much the same time as you the reader.

Do please leave a comment and share your own experiences. It would be comforting to know that I’m not the only person who feels this way!

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